A little about myself!!

     Have you ever woken up one day and wondered, “How did so much time pass, and what do you want your purpose to be”? Honestly that was me! I can look back now and see myself in my younger years, really all of the way up to my 30s and see how I was just coasting through life, going through the motions I thought I should be going through. I was over weight, overly emotional and stuck in negativity. I realized I never truly knew myself. 

    I grew up poorer than poor, my mother was an addict and so was her abusive on and off again partner. We lived in a run down trailer infested with fleas and a literal mountain of garbage in our backyard. The only true escape I had was going to my grandmother’s but that too became a place of horror when my step grandfather molested me at a young age. A secret I held onto for many years due to the manipulation from him afterwards. There is so much more to share but that is for another post, another day. 

     I decided one day that I was going to let go of it all, my past, expectations of others, the fear, everything that was holding me back! I wanted to be a better example for my 2 beautiful daughters, showing them that everyday is a new opportunity to heal and grow. I wanted to start enjoying life and learning new things! I quickly realized that the traditional way of life was not for me. 

    I have always been scared to truly be myself, fear of the judgment of others but one day I truly realized that when others judge you, they are actually judging something they dislike about themselves. The right people stay in your life without judgment, criticism or pain. It is okay for people to be “left behind” if your paths no longer flow together, doesn’t matter who it is. 

    I no longer wanted to let the fear control me, no longer wanted to continue watching life speed past me. So I started working on myself, letting my inner diva, inner goddess and inner light shine as bright as they possibly can. I started dancing and singing again, introduced journaling and meditation back in and did the thing I never thought I would..started reading self help books. Again, we will come back to all of this in future posts. 

    I started this blog to share my story in hopes that it may help someone else see their own light and know they are not alone. There will be a variety of topics I post about:

-Learning to garden and homestead 

-Painting and Art Therapy

-Photos I share of our hiking adventures

-Sharing my life lessons with you

and so much more. All of the topics will be about allowing myself and my Goddess to grow in every way! 

I named my blog ‘Growing with a Goddess’ because I want to show you it is possible to pull your inner god and goddess out of any darkness they may be in and truly grow with them. 

    I look forward to growing with you all!