Learning the power of manifesting!

    I never believed in the power of manifesting, I always thought it was pointless in wishing for more. It took a long time to realize that way of thinking is why nothing more was happening for me. It is so easy to get stuck in the negative mindset, to let the anger and sadness take over. We get trapped in that mindset and it starts to consume us. It was so easy for me to live in the victim mentality because that is what I grew up seeing. My mother never took accountability for any of her wrong doings, she uses people, lies and steals and plays the victim when she gets called out on it. She always uses the “I did the best I could with what I had” but sits there and judges everyone else especially her children and our parenting, even though she was never a good example of any of it herself. I realized that is exactly what I was doing, I was becoming her and that terrified me. I was angry, sad, scared and had no self esteem and I started to criticize people to make myself feel better. It was easier to tell everyone else what they needed to work on then to look inwards and work on myself. 

    So in hopes to be better than where I came from I started doing the work. I let myself feel my emotions and fail at things. I started to change my mindset from “why is this happening to me” to “what is the lesson here”. I took a step back and saw the ways I needed to grow and let go, ways I needed to show up not only for myself more but for my family. By becoming my mother I realized I was failing my own kids and that was the hardest thing to admit. 

   That is where learning to manifest has come in. Manifesting is all about changing your mindset on things, talking to the universe as though it is already happening. I started saying affirmations to myself, writing them down and reading some from others. 

“I understand it is not my fault that I had no real parental figure to show me how to love and be loved”

“I am patient and calm, the anger and sadness do not control me”

“I am free to find who I truly am”

“I no longer need to be in constant survival mode”

“I am strong, smart and capable”

“I understand that I am worthy of good things”

    Those are just a few that I try and tell myself daily while I am re-wiring my brain. Now don’t get me wrong, I still have my moments where I fall back to old habits or reactions but I am actively putting the work in every day to remind myself that to have a rainbow you must have a little rain beforehand. I refuse to allow myself or other’s opinions to continue to stop me from truly living MY life. 

    I know the universe will provide me with everything I need as long as I do my part and do the work! Just saying what you want to happen is not actually manifesting, that is just planting the seed for your dreams and ideas. You have to decide every day what you can do to show the universe you are ready for what you’re asking. It can be a big action like changing your career, moving to a different city or country, or something small like journaling, walking for 30 minutes a day or simply taking a day to rest and recharge. Something that is important to know while manifesting is keeping a balance of action and rest. 

    I challenge you all to close your eyes and truly envision what YOUR inner goddess or god is craving. Then ask yourself, what scares you more…Going through life exactly how you are now or making that first step that starts putting that dream into motion? 

Remember, YOU deserve to be happy and thriving and IT IS POSSIBLE!